UNPHASED

You walk around acting like nothing was the same

that I poured my heart out and you saw it as everyday rain 

I gave you my all 

but you even wanted my grave 

I stood alone 

not in a crowd 

not in a field 

not even in the presences of my peers 

but 

beside you

in-front of you 

anywhere I was close to you 

I was alone 

I was cold 

I should have listened when they told me you were cold 

when they told me that you could walk away with not one broken bone 

no tear to shed 

no voice to crack 

.... Nothing

I'm here
acting like the world sees me
understands me
wants to pretend like it has any interests in me
because you made me feel
like I wasn't worthy
like what I said was dust in the air
settles to quickly
Like my flesh and my breath; was a waste of the earth's energy
Any word spoken would enter black hole vicinity  

you made me feel alone and forgotten
I thought...I was completely abandoned

I'm here now
I know that I'm worthy
I'm unphased by
your viewpoint of me
how now you want me but honey
I now see clearly
you don't deserve me
you never needed me? ... Now you'll never have me

because now
I make me happy
I make me smile
I make my money and
I support my ups and downs

This started off sour
but reading it now
you see I became stronger
I took a stand
I know my power
You made me feel alone, but now
I shine like no damn tomorrow

I am UNPHASED and I am EMPOWERED

UPDATE: So I'm giving Youtube a try aha

Hello beautiful people of the blog world <3,

So I've been missing in action on here, mainly because of school and work; both having such demand for my time.

I have decided to make a effort to not only try to get back into my writing ( mostly because I've had writer's block for a while now) but also try out Youtube. I know someone's probably thinking " really...YOUTUBE!!?" aha

I spend majority of my time sitting in my room with my dog or with a pen and loads of notes so I thought id be more productive and make something out of that. I don't go out much...I am a home body!

I don't know what type of YouTube I'd be...I've dabbed into my school skills ( which i look like a total piece of shit in) and even skincare. Guess I'll adventure around there till I find someone that gets me going.

Remember you are beautiful and deserve the best from life <3 no matter what

PS. the link for my channel is right below if you were curious ! <3

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCWayeQ-efUiKDGASnZ6aXCQ